Private hell

My world a private hell, because I feel I am a public embarrassment.

 

Do we keep our feeling to ourselves, or as someone said recently, we turn conversations about ourselves.

Do we then in turn, push friends and relatives away with our constant self-indulgence about our woes and miserable persona?

Do we ever stop and listen to ourselves or do we listen to ourselves to much?

Is there enough time to in our worlds to create a peace, or do we criticise, beat ourselves up, look in the mirror and feel sick, disgusted by what we see?

Do we in turn listen to others? By this I mean when someone says this or that is good, do we believe them or do we simply think ‘they are just saying it to be polite’

We fall fowl of good intentions, our goals, hopes and dreams, then complain about lack of opportunity, but do we create that failure ourselves. 

You may think this is absolute gibberish or you may agree entirely, but one thing I do know, it's exactly how I feel.

Some days you know you are in the right place, everything goes like clockwork, other days the shoes don’t fit and everything goes wrong. But on the day where everything is fine are you like me, waiting for the axe to fall.

There is not enough time for good and bad to meet and create harmony, we can bore people with our constant whinging, negative attitude, but isn’t that the way we are. We do listen to others, but it is all too easy to say ‘it’s just like when or how I did’ thus becoming a self-proclaiming voice.
 

Some days you know you are in the right place, everything goes like clockwork, other days the shoes don’t fit and everything goes wrong. But on the day where everything is fine are you like me, waiting for the axe to fall.

There is not enough time for good and bad to meet and create harmony, we can bore people with our constant whinging, negative attitude, but isn’t that the way we are. We do listen to others, but it is all too easy to say ‘it’s just like when or how I did’ thus becoming a self-proclaiming voice.

Are we then an embarrassment to our friends, become a negative vampire to them.  

The guilt kicks in, we shut ourselves away, hiding behind closed doors or like me the computer screen.

My world a private hell, because I feel I am a public embarrassment.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

My world a private hell, because I feel I am a public embarrassment.