Another empty locker, in another empty room

Life moves on, the seasons change

My life I wish to rearrange

Confidence gone, locked the door

Shut out the world for ever more

Folks took away my sense and dignity

Said I was no good and so you see

I had to step back, rewind my mind

And seek the answers try and find

Where is this long hard road leading to

As I climb upwards and longing for you
I try so hard to turn and walk away
But maybe tomorrow, but not yet, today
As the bills pile high upon the shelf
I ignore the world and my inner self
Focus is blurred and thoughts constantly unnerve
Maybe this is the life I ultimately deserve

Thousands of troubles stirring in my head

Despite the ruthless, searching words I’ve read
I am fragmented, no longer whole
Never understanding my true life’s role
Not being a one single entity
There is now No ‘me’

Only the merest pieces of the identity
Unstructured, forever falling slippery
No longer the person you once knew
But a polished veneer you can’t see through
Armour so strong, yet an Achilles' heel
You can’t comprehend how I really feel
Crying inside, tormented broken
Lying words, by me, so often spoken


I built an impenetrable prison, around my world
My own creation in which, my body hurled
The bars of steel, wire barbed and trust
Glittering life, tarnished turned to rust
Walking a tight rope across the chasm precariously
My story I search to find ruined catastrophically
Drowning in a miasma of pollution
Lost in the deepest murky sea solution
Reaching out beyond the parapet of emotions
Screaming into the silent void, stirred commotions

Pretence and lies my life evolves

Never the truth to divulge
I stare in the mirror of time and space
Search for an answer on trodden face
Looking deep into sad blue eyes
Once happy, now always sighs
Tell me please if you can

When will I be
Set free?