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Every one of us will at some stage in life lose our arrogance of youth and feel the vulnerabilities of time. It’s just when and why….

As with all things in life… when we lose something, we gain something… we lose our arrogance to find a strange shield called experience

Life takes such funny and sharp turns sometimes, that you can’t help but feel you’ve lost the way.

Suddenly, on this quiet Thursday morning at 3am, I feel old, jaded and cynical. Suddenly, I’m not so sure how the world works anymore. Goodness…I think I just lost the arrogance of my youth. If you’re allergic to emotions you can’t really understand how it feels.

When your life has cumulated into an about-turn, you can’t help but raise your eyes to the heavens and wonder to yourself!!! What the heck!!

Don’t worry; I’m still good, still happy. Guess this is just what too much time does to a fettered mind. Need to start working…like pronto. Like NOW!

But meanwhile, in view of recent events, I’m beginning to wonder what happened to my self worth…and ME

Love has little to do with anything. It’s about meeting the average person at the right place at the right time.

I finally know what I want to do with my life (or more realistically, for the rest of my working life as I foresee it).

It’s annoying that what I want to do for the rest of my life, is something that I told myself all my life that I never wanted to do.

Am still sitting on the fence over whether blood is really thicker than water 

I could die anytime, but despite knowing this fact, am not sufficiently prepared.

My new job is making me think too much about my own mortality for my own good.

I only know what I want after going through several rounds of what I don’t want. Learning from the experience of struggling through the crud mire of mud, wading through the incoming tide, trying to make sense of it all.

Only problem now is, I have lost faith in myself. Despite folks telling me now is the right time, we believe in you. If only I could truly believe in me……….

If only……….

I can believe in me

I do believe in me…………………………….I can do it……….if only it was so easy!